(i am not afraid)

by sj
This is the cover I remember reading in junior high.

This is the cover I remember reading in junior high.

Heather and I both started our Stephen King Reading Project on January first (she talks about it [among other things] here).  Since we’re reading in chronological order of publication, Carrie was our first stop.  I first read Carrie when I was in junior high and devouring everything Stephen King had written up to that point.  While parts of it struck a chord within me, I was more than ready to move on to his other work, and it wasn’t something that really stuck.  I read it again about ten years ago, and didn’t care much for it.  I’m not even sure WHY I didn’t care for it, just that I didn’t – hence the two star rating I’d given it on goodreads.

Because I DISTINCTLY REMEMBERED not enjoying it the last time (even if I still can’t remember why), I wasn’t anticipating to feel much differently about it this time around.

Which just goes to show that reading the same books at different times in your life can yield far different experiences.

I didn’t love it this time, it’s not my new favourite or anything – but I can see that it’s a solid novel, and can kind of understand its popularity.

I didn’t find it to be particularly scary, though.  Mostly it just made me sad and angry.

Sad and angry because I could totally identify with Carrie.  Sad and angry because – while I didn’t go on a telekinetic killing spree after having a bucket of pig’s blood poured on me at my senior prom – I know all too well just how bitchy high school/junior high girls can be.  Hell, girls of any age.  I’ve had a few encounters with mean girls of the adult variety within the last year, and for a little bit I was made to feel like I was back in high school, wanting to punch them right in their stupid faces, then curl up in a ball and cry until it was all over.  Sad and angry because Margaret White was a crazy, abusive, fundie bitch who didn’t deserve to have a child.

Reading the passages from her point of view, and Carrie’s memories of the things her mother had done to her when she was a child were probably the hardest parts for me to read.  I’ve talked about abuse before, and don’t really want to go into it again, but…yeah.  I admit to a bit of fist pumping when she got what she deserved.

I guess all of this is neither here nor there, though.  My main point is that prior to this year, I would have ranked this pretty low on my mental list of Stephen King novels, but that is no longer the case.

It was kind of neat to read such an early example of his work, recognizing the little writing patterns that we’ve all come to think of as SK’s signature moves.  The parenthetical thoughts, the newspaper clippings/excerpts from essays, switching back and forth between PoVs with little to no notice…he was already doing all of those things here.

I can’t wait to see how I feel about other books of his as I re-read them.  Next up is ‘Salem’s Lot, which I ALSO haven’t read since junior high…and also remember not liking all that much.

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I see that a lot of my friends on goodreads have read this one.  Many of you rated it quite highly, what did you like/dislike about it?

59 Responses to “(i am not afraid)”

  1. I don’t find any of his stuff truly scary. They are more interesting.

  2. Yeah, I thought Carrie had some very true parts to it. I think I’ve read most of his books and the only ones I found really scary were The Shining, which seriously freaks me out every time, and Misery, because that lady was just one freaky nutter.

    • I’m looking forward to talking about the individual stories I found the scariest when we get there. I know the ones that have stuck with me the longest, and I can’t wait to see if they still give me trouble sleeping.

  3. Pet Semetary was the first book of his I read when I was about 16, and I loved it. Carrie came a few years later and, like you, I wasn’t too keen on it.

    Not sure why.

  4. I have only read The Shining by Stephen King. It took me a long while to read that because I just didn’t know where to begin. I hope to read more of his work in the future. Carrie has always interested me.

  5. This did scare me a bit when I read it the first time (I was 13? 14?), for a few reasons.

    This time, I had the same experience you did. I’ll be blogging about it soon. :)

  6. I’m with you – I don’t know that it scares me, per se. It’s always affected me, though. Books about bullying – especially about girl-on-girl cruelty – get to me every time. I totally rooted for Carrie, even though I felt kind of terrible doing so because I was rooting for a murderer when all was said and done.

  7. The only Stephen King I have read is his book “On Writing,” which I enjoyed very much :)

  8. Pet Sematary is my first and only King so far – though I have a couple (including Carrie) on my mental 2013 TBR pile. I definitely found it scary but also so, SO sad and moving and understanding of the profound effects of grief. I do hate girl-on-girl bitching though (you’re right, any inkling of it now and I still feel like I’m right back in high school) and abuse of children by parents with extreme religious views, so I have a feeling I’m going to be rooting for young Carrie, maybe a little TOO much… I’ll be watching your King progress with interest to find out what to read next!

  9. I read ‘Salem’s Lot for the first time a couple years ago and found it disappointing. I think part of it was that his prose didn’t grab me as much as it usually does. But it was cool to see the beginning of Father Callahan’s saga, though. I only met him in DT.

  10. I enjoyed seeing the mean kids get what they deserved. I read it in high school, then college.

  11. Should I risk the wrath of sj and admit that I have never read Salem’s Lot?

    • Why would I get mad at you for saying you haven’t read a book I said I remember not liking much, by an author I know YOU don’t like much?

      • I love Stephen King. When I was in middle school, my mom bought me his complete (to date) collection. But I never read that one. It didn’t appeal.

        • Then what the heck with the DT reluctance?! I wasn’t pressuring you because I thought it wasn’t your thing?

          • I can’t get through the first book! I will try again. Maybe I’ll check it out from the library on my new E-READER!

            • The first book is tough for A LOT of readers, but the series is well worth the journey if you can get past there…!

              • Brian, I’ve been telling her that for YEARS.

                • I wish I had better advice for readers who are struggling with The Gunslinger. Some say to just skip to The Drawing of the Three, but I feel like you have to at least try to get through The Gunslinger to fully “get” into the world. :)

                  • I totally agree! And while I can’t really empathize (cos I’ve <3ed that world for so long), I can understand the struggle. A lot of people get too hung up on "wait, what IS this?!" (and trying to quantify/categorize it) to just sit down and enjoy it.

                    • “A lot of people get too hung up on “wait, what IS this?!”"

                      YEP, exactly! I’ve always really liked The Gunslinger because the whole concept of this world that had “moved on” is just right in my wheelhouse of ideas I love to read about. But I do understand it’s tough for some readers because it is definitely NOT a book that falls neatly into a “type” or category of story you’ve probably read before.

                    • [nod] I’ve also always been a big fan of that sort of story. I keep telling people “Look, doesn’t matter that you don’t like westerns, cos it’s only sort of one. Doesn’t matter that you’re not into fantasy, cos it’s only sort of…”

  12. “while I didn’t go on a telekinetic killing spree after having a bucket of pig’s blood poured on me at my senior prom”

    GOOD to know! ;)

  13. A webmaster of one of the Stephen King fan websites and I had discussed doing a big group re-read of all of King’s books in order at some point. I think it would be kind of fun to “re-discover” them with a group of readers — some reading them for the 10th time, some reading for the first, etc.

  14. I plowed through most of SK when I was in Jr. High. I should really re-read some of these. I like the idea of having an adult perspective on them.

    • Take a look at his list of works and let me know which you’re interested in re-reading. When we are getting close to them, I’ll let you know and you can read with us!

  15. I’ve hardly read any Stephen King, but I’ve always wanted to read this one. I’ve probably seen more movies based on his stuff than actual books of his, but in comparing some of them, there’s only one movie that I preferred to the original version. So even though the movie version of this was famous, I would rather read it first.

  16. Carrie was my first Stephen King novel, so that could be part of the reason why I enjoyed it so much. I recently reread it, the first time I read it was my freshman year in college. I felt more affected by her mother’s treatment and the fact she seemed to be so brainwashed by her mother as well, although she was struggling to break free of it. It is hard to read at times. I felt sadder at Tommy’s death this time around as well. I’m not really sure why. Looking forward to reading further Stephen King novel reviews :)

    • Yeah, Tommy made me sadder this time, too. He wasn’t really guilty of anything, and he probably got the shortest end of the stick there.

  17. I love that you get so worked up over books…
    Hey, I am going to do some posts later and tomorrow with a Hobbity overtone that you might enjoy… just sayin’…

  18. It by Stephen King was effing terrifying. I haven’t read Carrie. I only recently read Salem’s Lot and I liked it very much. I have hated every movie or mini series made from King’s work and I see they are working on a production based on Under the Dome. sigh. Not his greatest, but better than Dreamcatcher, which was confusing and a little gross. I LOVED The Sun Dog, a novella which was in Four Past Midnight. I guess that is all I have to say about King for now.

  19. I read this for the first time last year and I was surprised by the newspaper clippings in it, I guess because I haven’t really read very many of his novels. When I was in middle school I decided I would jump on the Stephen King reading bandwagon by reading Insomnia, which I was utterly bored by but finished. Then I didn’t read anything he’d written until I picked up Skeleton Crew and Night Shift and realized I liked his short stories way better than his novels. But I usually don’t like the endings of his novels. This one was pretty satisfying though, especially from a post-high school but realizing sometimes it doesn’t entirely end exasperated point of view.

    • He used to do it a lot more than he does now. His short fiction has always been stronger than his eleventy billion page novels. Even The Stand (which I LOVE) has major issues at the end.

      I’m really looking forward to re-reading Night Shift and Skeleton Crew, though.

      • Aha. I think your project sounds really fun, it’s always nice to have good stuff to look forward to when slogging. I really need to read The Stand though, I like the miniseries, when I was writing papers I always had my fingers crossed that it would be playing all day on the Sci Fi channel and lucked out a few times. The Langoliers is just not as good to write papers to. Plus I’m super fond of ensemble stories (and King always seems to be able to handle a lot of characters well, especially in “The Mist” I think) and that’s a major ensemble.

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